The title says it all....doesn't it?
I had a revelation the other day that I need to get in print so I don't ever forget it. I was thinking to myself how lucky/ blessed I am to be Elijah and Phoebe's mom. I thought wait a minute.....I 'm lucky to be Joy's mom too. As hearbreaking as this whole experience is and how I go over in my head "Why me...why my baby?" I would not have it any other way. What I mean by that is I am glad to be Joy's mommy. I could never imagine not being her Mommy even if the likelihood of her survival is non-existent.
Not to mention God chose Lewis and I to be her parents. Whatever the reason...He chose us! We chose life for Joy! I know it's all a little more complex than that, but He knew we were going to give her every chance at life even though that life may not actually be outside the womb, but life nonetheless! Please don't mistake my rather matter of fact way of saying that as to think that we are not praying daily for God to intervene and make our little girl a complete miracle. There is nothing we want more!!
the storm is brewing
1 year ago